Policy of Self-Policing.

The attempt to police one's thought.

Standing in the kitchen, apropos of nothing, I should kill myself.

Question being, with regards to, the source, of, and....

For increased titillation, presume the source to be a disembodied intelligence. Ghost, demon, what have you.

Or otherwise, just the same tired circular loops of self-contained thought, birthed sometime in the mid-90s and now refined into solid, well-furrowed habit.

For no legitimate reason.

All of the time.

Policing the dumbest of phantoms, especially for one who is afraid of death.